Tuesday, August 9, 2011
on the pain of embarrassment
Walking down 20th street when a perfect encapsulated embarrassing memory flashed in front of me. When I saw it in my mind it felt as if someone had punched me, hard and quick in the stomach, the tremendous feeling of embarrassment nearly stopped me from taking another step. This happens from time to time, I'm not sure what triggers them, or why I can't be programmed to not remember the stupid things I've said or done, but each time it happens I hear Homer’s voice saying “Doh!” as I flinch in recollection. Really, I hear it every single time. I’m not sure what I heard alongside this feeling before the Simpson’s existed, but maybe I hadn't been alive long enough to thoroughly embarrass myself prior to 1990.