It's just a daydream for now, made a little more real by the application submission and the country check list: Ireland, Spain, Italy, Portugal, Belgium, Germany, Iceland, Netherlands, check. It's just a daydream, but last night our words felt a little more real. About what we want our life to look like, to feel like, if we really want what we thought we wanted. The house with the yard in the nice neighborhood with good schools and a place to swim so our kids could grow up knowing the water. Yes, the water part is always important on my list. But the checks have changed, maybe it's just a family somewhere we feel at home, doing jobs that make us feel good, and just like that the suburban cul-de-sac that had occupied my vision of the future turned into a thousand what could be's and maybe's instead.